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Monday, September 29, 2008 Y

Today celebrated kaili and jiayu bday haha once again HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY to both of u! :D (pic took frm cheryl blog haha)

Today i was still quite stony most of the time..but i'm really feelin better..tml playin bball again! yay! hurray! although my blister still hven recover..haiz..also many ppl bday comin up..busy busy busy..broke broke broke...tired tired tired..guess everyone r in the same state as me..haiz..i shall go prac math le..got stupid test tml..

hongsiew :)

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Sunday, September 28, 2008 Y

I thot i was feelin better..and no matter how much i dun wan to admit..i'm still nt feelin any much better some how...

Feel so tired..so heavy...so emo...cant focus at all...stonin alot..no energy at all...no mood at all...no appetite at all..amazingly over these few days i hv been eatin v little..almost like only one meal a day or even lesser..sometimes hungry but juz dun feel like eatin at all..feel v sick & tired..some times even feel like vomittin..dunno exactly wats wrong wif me...mayb i'm juz tired..and i'm really nt stressed by study..and this kind of mood hv been on and off...and my whole body is aching like dunno wat..obvious its bcos of the long hr of bball..but i dun regret playin anw

Haiz i seriously hate this..i dun like to b so distracted..so i'm tryin hard to get myself out of this stupid state..i thot i nid to tok to someone..or my frends actually..to make myself feel better..but yet i also dun really feel like tokin at all..sometimes i wan to tok but no one has time to listen..and i dun blame them...my frends hv helped me alot..i noe i hv to rearrange myself..ya i noe...i guess only i can pick myself up..and i noe i hv to..this is nt the time for me to fall dwn..although i dunno y i fell dwn..

I dun like to let my mood influence my frends..i dun wan to trouble them..everyone is busy..wif A lvl and their own stuff..everyone has their own prob too..i dun wan to trouble my frends..so i noe i shldnt remain like a stupid emo kid..nt as if i'm the only one wif troubles...so i shld pick myself up..yea i shld...so dun worry..seriously... everyone dun worry abt me...i will b back on track soon...real soon..i will make sure of this myself...

and i miss the pebbles...miss u all alot..

oh and juz to add in..i juz bathe and when i was bathing..suddenly my neighbour in the toilet started singin song..it was indeed loud and clear..nt to say abit off tune..but guess wats the great song she sang..the ans is ...S'pore nat'l athem...i didnt noe i had such patriotic neighbour mann..hahaha amazingly cheered me up without any reason..thks mann my patriotic neighbour...

hongsiew :)

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Saturday, September 27, 2008 Y

Yo everyone...i think i managed to rearrange myself...although nt yet fully..but i'm tryin...shld juz blog abt some previous happy stuff..

Firstly on 20th aug..i, dom & cheryl went to queenstown to buy things..and the photos below r taken on the bus wif cheryl & dom lookin quite retarded but funny haha

dom & cheryl smilin hugely

acting cute

After dat we went to amk hub to buy food for our clss chalet the next day, which is on the 21st... clement & lester joined us too

dom & lester lookin like a gay partner

choco banana marshmellow! omg so cool! 2 of my fav tgt! bought at candy empire

Then come the actual chalet...

took this juz outside our chalet rm

tsuhui, yvonne, jiayu & kaili took the small ferris wheel in E-hub at dwntown east

kaili & her corn

corn eyes

weight lifting set made frm corn haha

corn weight liftin

kaili & yvonne

me & amanda

breezer mann

dom, eileen, cheryl & elaine mahjongin

at the bbq pit. amanda,me,theresa,lester,kaili & yvonne

same grp of ppl but wif clement in the middle

me & clement

theresa bbqing

next mornin at burger king after checkin out

After dat i, cheryl,amanda & lester went to arcade again..

This first vid below is taken at arcade on the day of chalet...para para dance by dom & lester haha they might kill me if they see this... u all might hv to tilt ur head to watch the vids..paiseh..and lower the volume first...

This vid is taken on the mornin when we r goin to check out..

Chalet & all were quite fun though...enjoyed ourselves bfore chiongin A lvl...gd dat the clss, although nt everyone, get to interact more...

Then ystd supposed to study in sch after lessons but..bball again make me failed to study haiz..but it was really v fun mann..it was v crazy cos we played frm ard 1.30 noon to 7 plus at nite leh its like the longest i hv played lor although we in between got rest lah..real fun..but my blister came back so damn pain sia...but i still wan to play bball again! damn shiok haha lets play again soon! haha

hongsiew :)

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Little Memories Of The Past

Tuesday, September 23, 2008 Y

More miseries hv been caused
things juz come floodin in
makin life more diff, more miserable, more suffocatin..
really dun wan all these things to flood in durin this period of time..
A lvl is alrdy makin life diff enuf
i'm juz any normal human
tired..v tired...
but cheryl say diff ppl r blessed in diff things...
and i think i'm blessed wif great frends & ppl ard me...
i'm truly grateful abt this..thks to my frends who has always been there for me..
thks for listenin to my troubles..
but somehow this doesnt seem to reduce much of my guilt & troubles
mayb i'm juz too pessimistic abt my life...
somehow my tap is juz nt within much of my control..
stubborn can cause ppl much miseries
ignorance can cause ppl much miseries
i dunno how to restrain myself..control myself...so things gt worse
i noe there r some ppl more miserable than me..
i nid to get a hold of myself..though v diff.. i nid time and strength...
forgive me..but i cant forgive myself
nt in the mood to blog abt the supposedly happy stuff happened in the last few days
mayb i will blog abt these soon..sry...& dun worry everyone...

hongsiew :(

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Saturday, September 20, 2008 Y

Yo..todae i & bernice & justi went to cafe cartel to eat dinner..last paper of my prelims..haha its been a v long time since we met up wif each other..stupid anqi didnt turn up todae..

After we ate..we went to the ''uncle place'' to sit dwn and chat..den this cute little handsome boy was slpin behind us..this is the second time i see this boy here wif his grandpa..we felt dat he is quite poor thing to b there slpin..abit no life for a kid..sad..but nonetheless he is really cute and handsome mann..

1st position

2nd position ..sooo cute..

Ystd we went sch to play MJ..but i didnt play at all lah..cant help but went to play bball again haha cheryl won freakin 19bucks i think..frm the MJ game ohman..she is awesome...haha...durin evenin i saw this beautiful cloud and sunset colour! its like OMG...damn nice mann..there is this one long line of clouds in the sky! nice pattern!

long stretch of cloud! like lightnin ! so nice!

our sch has such nice view mann

sunset! nice!

nice clouds!

Ystd bfore went to sch..went out wif bernice & anqi..went to vivo haha

bernice & anqi

anqi actin cute haha

bernice anqi & me

nice effect done by bernice wif lots of effort haha

taken by bernice..nice sky! nice pic too

outside the jamming rm haha cool place...aq's bf & frends jamming inside

Had great days meetin up wif the pebbles this few days..felt great! love ya all..we shall meet up soon haha had fun wif frends in sch too! yay and goin to hv chalet on sun haha lookin forward to it! gonna post some more pics soon hehe

hongsiew :)

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