Such a long and spontaneous talk. after sayin and seeing everything and tearing my heart out. i think somehow i hv such an amazingly unique r/s. So many obstacles and compromising and acceptin on both sides. Yet we r still choosin to hold on to it. Mayb the end bcame nearer or further after this. Well we will noe when its time and we see the dead end. But we promise to make the best out of it.

haii smtimes i hate it dat i am still studyin and studyin uni. the money frm loan to let me go study and the fact dat i cant wrk to earn money. sucks. sucks bad when i see my mum who still insist on goin wrk despite sprained her leg. damn sad. dun wan to see doc. stagger here and there. still insist on goin to wrk. doin those manual wrk. cleaning wrk. sucks. my parents r old but still wrkin. dat makes me hate my attitude towards them sometimes. but i only noe how to think abt all these but dunno how to do all these. real bad.

i swear i will nt cry again, for today. at least i will try to stop myself frm doin it.

i dunno why my grades sucks so much this sem...i hate it..nv seen so many Cs in a sem. sucks really. i thot i am alrdy a person quite heck care of grades but so many Cs has just crushed my heck care-ness. Esp frends around u gets As and Bs. Hate to admit it but it makes me feel more demoralised. Dunno wats wrong with me...dunno if its i'm not serious enuf or i juz really dun understand the mods this sem. So crap. Mood havent been gd these few days actually...things juz upset me but i hv to try to hide my emotions bcos i didnt wan to made things difficult for ppl and i didnt wan to behave like a child wanting attention.

I juz wrote the longest email i hv ever written in a last attempt to save a frendship. i decide to tell u the truth u hv always so wanted to noe. i dunno if this is gonna destroy our frendship our rebuild our frendship but we shall see. hopefully it turns out to be the better side. finally smthin off my load. For mths this issue has been in my mind.

Today met an old frend on the train back hm...talked abit...kind of felt like at least i'm nt the only one who changed...but somehow felt like how come i'm the only one being punished in a way. But anw it felt nice tokin to him although its juz a short while..but was quite nice to noe even though we werent dat close of frend last time but he still bothered to call me when he saw me...its really nice of him.

Sometimes i juz selfishly hope there are lesser things to deal wif in my life cos i juz wan some constant peace in my mind but i noe life is nv gonna b easy and i noe ppl ard me are also filled wif troubles of their own and everyone tries to deal wif it. Mayb we juz nid to take a break frm everythin some time and then carry on back into dealin them.

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